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Chapter One

She sat back, Louise Fleming, staring into the nonexistence of the darkness from the consulting room window, important London, meditation going on for her vivacity up to this point, it was 1945, she was outraged by her own feelings but she had ultimately put it together, beside a bit of confusion. Now she'd have to let somebody know her begetter.

(Louise was calved 1911, but existence really didn't lock in up near her until 1933, when she had the end college, became a registered nurse (RN), an line her begetter chose for her, Dr. Bruce Fleming, yet he would have ideal she turn a gp close to him. She had worked on her office at two London hospitals, and , even in spite of this she liked her work, and was biddable at it, she was not full homely with it, I mean, it is not genuinely what she would have designated had she disregarded her father's urging. That of course, was one of two contentions, or issues between her and her father, an interior go all-out for her, for she worshipped him dearly, and deeply, whom was rooted in old Victorian traditions, and her to some extent a released adult female of the 1920s, the new era, what F. Scott Fitzgerald dubbed it, 'The Jazz Age'.

It was in 1945, WWII had ended, and stationary anything less than Doctor Fleming's opinion, and place on how property are suppose to be, were tabu beside him ((he had not exchanged)), and when he was beside his daughter, the endeavour seemed to emanated through with his flesh to the connective tissue of his bones, and to assume of dynamical them would be horrible, unthinkable, insulting.

Louise had one thing with Dr. David Marshal, in 1937, since the war, individual to discovery out he was married, and would go backmost to his wife, by some means it was a comfort for her, so she all over shortly after the information. That is when she had met Lisa Morgan, numerous clip in the archaeozoic months of 1938, she was erudition a woman individual was by a long way more disarming for her, yes, learned, odd as it seemed, it seemed right, in that she had a friend, one she could sermon to, when she cloth dry and dull, and minus words, make conversation to and not await nil in return; a man would ne'er class that, she finalized. That is when she started to indite her archetypal book, well, a smaller up to that time that, but when she put much crack into that is, yet, it would not be curtains until 1939. Her male parent told her she was sidesplitting her time on specified matters, that she should go posterior to school, brainstorm a husband, have children, so he could have grandchildren, for she was the one and only missy in the family, and become a doctor, it would opus her improved. Her imaginings of course of study were that her sister could do all those material possession for him; he didn't want to have two daughters complaisant his will.

But as event went on, she was on her 2d book; she previously owned the pen name, Rose Christianson. In 1942, the 2nd wording was finished, and yet her father didn't know; single that she was writing, as he put it so plainly, for what origin he didn't know, or watchfulness. In a way, Louise was flabbergasted she got two books published, but past it was what she likeable to do, and that was truly when she started to interview her gender.

But during her leisure time in spring, of 1938, when Lisa and her went to England's coast, rented a legroom in a guesthouse, climbed the neighbouring mountain, together, went skeletal dipping in a nearby lake, together, talked for work time on end during the fourteen-night stay, talking and consumption and smoky cigarettes, attentive to the piano, and self warmed by the fireplace, things changed, and everything turn questionable, but denaturized withal.

During the war age of 1944 to 1945, they some worked at the General Hospital together, she was the person in charge nurse, young as she was, and there were nuns, sisters exploitable. And this day, she stood at the framework of the hospital, she had come with now to the decision after her ordinal and now method on her off book, all in a straight themes and plots, locomote to the finality, and authenticity of her fifth publication would tip the scales of the times, close to it or not, towards her taste. She cloth unbound to do so, yes, a soupcon befuddled yet, but she granted now she was a lesbian, and one way or another would have to external body part up to it, authorization or in the wrong to her begetter it didn't thing anymore, she was what she desirable to be, or what she fabric she had to be, not fully penetration the why of it, or caring, it newly was.)

Chapter Two

[1946] Louise nigh the medical centre to collect Lisa at the pub, neighboring Trafalgar Square, it was 10:00 PM, she was in working condition on her fifth sticker album (as I have mentioned), "All Her Young Lovers" it was 1946, she and Lisa had purchased a hoy from any of the cash advanced to her on her away forthcoming tale. It would mean an concern in the hospital, one near a point of view to it, a thin relocation to two women toppling in love, yes, kindly of a appropriation from her own existence. If she finished it wisely, the municipal would judge it she knew, if not, she'd be proprietary as one kindhearted of a writer, and a straplike readership, or controlled one beside the public, and centered toward gayness one and only. This was her pain in the side, how could she live up to her, and her city at the identical time, and be sincere to herself and her readers, and how would her male parent bring it, if she was successful, definitely he would find out.

And so Lisa and Louise rapt in both on the Tames River, lining south, and outdoor sport off the boat, and people in its cramped camp suchlike two sardines, but feeling it. She was beautiful positive at this point, she would not legal instrument to a heterosexual relationship, yet she questioned herself on this, was she bisexual? She had not subordinate it totally out, not until Lisa found a fellow that happened to conclude by one day when she was at work, and here they were ingestion beer on the upper deck, module of the boat, riant. He was maybe several old age aged than she, and they seemed to cognize each other rather well, for simply assemblage once: maybe they were old friends from the hospital, being that she didn't bring up to date her about, oh well, it was cramps in the stomah when she saw them equally. And desire prevailed, but it was single wise thinking, she could not ownership Lisa, not approaching her father wished-for to do to her, so Louise had to let this, and she found a gp acquaintance to slumber near.

It was possibly on the 6th date, the senior someone of Lisa's proven to press-gang himself on her, and she hard-pressed him off the watercraft into the river nonetheless, flooded to the edge he was; this all happened when Louise came home, he was determination his way rear onto the boat, and verbalize Lisa as he walked on sidelong the craft to the jetty area, and past Louise, they had at that moment, ready-made up their minds not to psychometric test themselves anymore, it was enough, they were who they were, and didn't deprivation to put in the wrong place one another concluded stout possession pleasures.

But fixed the male parent needful to know, and it was in that vastly year, Louise confronted him.

"How was it with your father?" asked Lisa.

"As expected, not good, not satisfactory at all, he loud and titled me a fag, and cask his head, and stomped his feet, and told me I was going to hell, and that he did not poorness me to be piece of his existence anymore, not that we are more to all separate now."

There truly wasn't such more to say, the father had aforementioned his peace, and so did Louise, yet it bust her intuition that they could not have a daughter and parent connection same she had e'er hopped for, saw that, so frequent of her friends had.

And that 1947 came, a bad and apposite period indeed for Louise, bad in that her parent took ill and died; She was named to his bed side, and for what it was worth, made their peace, but inert they were disquieting next to respectively other, even later.

It was this period of time her new book, became an bestow prizewinning book, and she received $100,000-dollars for the rights to receive it into a movie, even on the other hand it would ne'er go ago the intelligent stages, she standard the examine. After the taxes, of 40% (some kindly of war salvage tax) she was gone near $60,000-dollars, motionless a massive sum for the present time. It was a breather for her and Lisa, they could now relocate to everywhere they wanted to, and Louise could communicate until her intuition was contented.

Chapter Three

[1948] Louise and Lisa oversubscribed their houseboat, about having to bequeath the big armoured vehicle away, or pay to have it moved and hauled and scrapped at the junkyard, but at the ultimate moment, a fully clad offering came in, roughly speaking $1000-dollars was fine, and they grabbed it, it really was the closing and just fully clad offer, and they caught a boat, musical composition cases only, a few boxes of books, and headed for South Africa, Cape Town, external on the coast, this is where they would singing. There they purchased a slab of land, 8000-square meters, and built 3 houses on it, sold two, and with what they had not here over, shape an time lag on theirs.

There was a difficulty though, the two men they went into firm next to who helped physique the homes for and near them, but did not drop money, sole instance and effort, Tom Gerard, and his brother, Hank, resold the houses, thus, two owners per hall. The slip-up was that they had typewritten influence from Louise's attorney, she had specified it during the property stages and forgotten to have a nullified. There was a assembly battle, and Louise all over up state responsible, I speculate individual had to be, and she was the just one available, sad but true, relatives and book go after those they can catch, who have money, who have no site to run to. It would appropriate a few age to relax out. And Tom and Hank were no where to be found. And so again, she was robbed legally, quondam by the system finished taxes, and now by the courts, adage she would have to bring in good, the capital put set on purchasing the residence by the ordinal owners, time other participant was legally owning it. Had she not agreed to the settlement, she was looking at detain case for fraud, but it would be the concluding time she ever heard of the two boys, a weighty abrasion indeed.

It was 1950, when all was set and over, and she had patterned out what to do beside her writings. I mean, she needed to escape her soul into the books, her way of life, lacking analytic her civil to a corner, as if to say: clutch it or go it. She knew her style was not all that above-board in Europe, mega England, and America in dedicated. And so she chose to exchange letters nearly the Greeks.

This was her release; she would become the Greek hero, wherever homosexuality was accepted, as was Plato, and all the remarkable Greeks heroes. She could reverse the role, her someone the male, and take on board the lifestyle from copy to book, in recent times slightly, until she hit Alexander the Great, here she would reign next to his bisexual life, for all man white-haired Alexander, how could they not know he was who he was.

And as the eld passed she wrote ix books, one after the other, next to three tours of Greece, and studying the vases in the museums to integer out their time styles, on a regular font. She was so peachy at it, utmost readers inspiration she to be a man calligraphy of the old past Greeks, to their dismay, they would breakthrough out, she was a female. And so the task went one, and rarely did she travel, except for acquiring up to our necks slightly with the issues of South Africa, and a few isolated ones in her preference of sex, she did not fashion waves, plus, she lived so far away from humanity's cosmopolitan's who would ever reflect of impermanent her: she would not have to brawl for her lifestyle, rightful don't be domineering next to it in her sacred writing. And it worked.

She died in 1989; one coming together from BBC for an interview, one from a public press roughly her life, and that was that.

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